January 2017 Update

It was all right and very productive at the same time. I don’t know if I was responsible for this all right month or the so called people I know.

Just like every new year I was motivated, I was going to make things happen and I was going to be “me”. Oh, don’t worry I was me this month actually the whole month, it’s just I was the version I don’t want to be.

I did so much this month, I was so into my resolutions and was trying so hard to achieve them. And I managed to tick off 4 things off my list- 7 Cliches for 2017.  

 

I joined a course to learn french and I am really loving it. It is not as easy as I thought it would be but I do like a challenge so it’s perfect.

I also wrote a poem *yay, I am a poet*. Obviously, it doesn’t rhyme because I cannot rhyme, it is a free verse and I am actually pretty proud of it.

I found an amazing Chinese restaurant and the perfect thing about it is that it is in my area *low-key dancing*. And the food is “yum”.

I am also half way done with my room, it is not exactly a sanctuary right now but it is pleasing to my eyes.

 

Mentally- This month was a little rough, I had problems more than usual but somehow I managed to overcome them or maybe I just suppressed them like always. I don’t like talking about it which only adds to it and even if I do talk about it I don’t see a positive outcome.

Physically- It was all right. Still taking medicines, still visiting doctors and still don’t have a permanent solution to whatever I have.

Conclusion- I am ecstatic about the progress I have made and I am trying really hard to be the version of myself that I want to be. And it’s all okay.

Stay Awesome Humans.

Are you Beautiful or Pretty?

When I was in 9th standard my teacher asked the class what is the difference between beautiful and pretty?

And listening to these words filled my mind with supermodels, actresses and people on the front page of magazines. Just when I was admiring how amazing Cameron Diaz looked on the front page of the cosmopolitan magazine, she asked the question again. And this time I tried to focus but I couldn’t figure out the difference.

The whole class was quite, some knew the answer but couldn’t put it in words, some were just confused and some thought that we were going to study synonyms that day.

After a long pause, she said that she never expected an answer from us and it is okay that we don’t know. And then she explained the difference.

Beautiful is a person who feels good, a person who is content while pretty is a vanity word. Pretty means looking good and just looking good.

I never knew that words hold so much power and even synonyms are so significantly different. From that day on I wanted to be a beautiful person and I still want to.

But as I grew up I realised that even though beautiful is a state that we should aspire to be in but we run after pretty.

 

This world is all about looking, not feeling.

If you look good you must feel good right!?

But what if we don’t?

 

People say we are not allowed to be impaired if we don’t have a terminal disease or wounds to show.

But we are hurt and we are in pain and don’t know how to explain.

 

Dressing up, putting on makeup, wearing high heels are the ultimate signs of being happy or so I’ve heard.

But I’ve seen people laughing hard while crying inside.

I’ve seen people dressed up from tip to toe while feeling hollow inside.

I’ve seen people just surviving, passing each day by.

 

If someone looks good it doesn’t mean they feel good.

So maybe once in while ask, “How are you feeling” instead of saying “You look good.”

Free Verse by Mortal in White

 

It felt so lonely here, amidst them all

All the loved ones were here and the dear ones too

If it was a feeling of a phase, I don’t know

No one tried nor did I and the feeling or phase seemed more perpetual

 

And then I moved from wretched to anxious and then to serene

 

Now I’m happy being alone, makes me content

All the noise is gone and I’m calm

Today I know the contrast in alone and lonely

I understand both, I respect both, I espouse both

 

I acknowledge happiness is awesome, but the Universe doesn’t revolve around a smile

Incandescent Objects Help Our Brain Work Better

Ever wondered about how the stars were made? I know the scientific explanation but what exactly was the purpose of those shiny little things in the sky which are numerous gases and miles away from us. I like to believe they are a ray of hope *I know it sounds cheesy but truth is truth* and something that unites this world together because no matter where you are, you can always see the stars *and other stationary objects but you get the idea*. I have always loved the idea of just lying in an open ground and watching the starry sky which is brightly lit. But I live in a city, city full of extremely bright lights which somehow overpowers the natural beauty of stars and the idea of watching that starry sky becomes more of a fantasy. It is a fantasy that gives me extra fuel on worthless days. Days when I don’t feel like myself or days when I don’t feel like getting out of bed or days when I just feel like ignoring the world.

 

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I have always been that person with the most different bags and strong opinions and extreme headbands and ardent principles. There were several times when I was so unsure of myself and wondered if it’s good to be the person I am *this bold and opinionated*. I know it seems mindless to worry about such useless things like bags or shoes but these useless things are what makes our personality. You are your choices, you can be considered something only if you are allowing it. And all this just made me realise that this world is like that extremely harsh city light and somehow we as stars just lose our natural light. But the most important thing is that no matter what happens we have to shine brighter than those harsh lights and help each other embrace our natural self. Everyone is opinionated on this planet and maybe on other planets too and that’s okay.

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Everyone is free to be whomsoever they want to be and enjoy whatever they like but we should not forget that we share this planet with more than 7 billion humans. Our opinions and decisions affect everyone so it is time to just stop blaming the society or the world because we always forget that we are the society and we make this world. A lot of humans have worked really hard just so we could enjoy the world as it is today and I think we owe it to them, us and future generations to not degrade it like we are currently doing and be careless with it. We have come so far from the times when we had to rub stones together to generate fire so why are we trying to go back to that cave people lifestyle. The best we can do in current situations is just be a magical sea unicorn and leave all the stupid problems behind and radiate as bright as we can. Please be nice to each other and try to be the best version of yourself.
Stay Awesome.

What is Mortal in White

I think Mortal in White is a pretty simple name and really easy to understand. I decided to name my blog that because well, I do not have any secret identity and I do not belong to any different species I am just a basic homo sapien, not that basic but you get the idea. I like to call myself a mortal because it’s definition is “subject to death”. The idea of death or leaving everything is just too big to imagine but it is something we just cannot escape so why not just embrace it. I know that the life I am given can end anytime by a car which just crossed the red light for fun or by someone who just didn’t like me or by someone who liked me way too much, endless reasons. So I like to live my life not denying the truth and not being consumed by it either. And White is my favourite colour which is why I am mostly spotted in white hence Mortal in White.

 

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I am a 20-year-old student of literature, Journalism and language. I really want to learn as much as I can and that is why I like to treat every day like a blank canvas which I can paint any colour I want. I like to believe I have a lot of years and days to live but god forbid if I do not then I would like to make the best of today.

 

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Steve Jobs once said, “if today was the last day of your life would you still want to do what you are about to do today?”. So, would you?
On a completely different note: plan as much as you can, have fun as much as you can, laugh as much as you can, just be yourself and embrace yourself.
Stay Awesome.

Struggles of Starting a Blog

I know it is my second post and yes I am already complaining but the struggle is real. I am all inspired to write and to create pictures that are good but the obstacles are just way too many. I always wanted to write or do anything visually creative and I wanted to start a blog before it was an ‘it’ thing. I used to work as a professional content writer *did it only almost for a year* but wasn’t really satisfied with it maybe because there were restrictions and set boundaries which are obvious, you cannot write a travelogue or poem or journals for an educational website *yeah, it was an educational website* because it just won’t make sense. So, I left my job as I wanted to continue my studies but between leaving my job and starting my classes I had a two months break. It was fun in the beginning I finally got to relax and catch up on things I liked but it slowly started to become frustrating and I started getting annoyed by everything and everyone. That was the time I thought that why haven’t I started a blog yet I have been wanting to do it for so long now. So, I brainstormed names for the blog and then signed up and then customised my site and it was finally up. I was so happy and then I started writing articles for the blog. Just when I was done with my first article which you probably have read and if not then go, check it out. It finally dawned on me that why I was avoiding starting a blog.

Pictures
I do not like getting my pictures clicked but I don’t want to use some random images from google, I wanna use my own. It is my blog and I want it to reflect my personality so naturally, I want the subject of the pictures to be me or something I like or feel connected to. So, for the sake of me, I decided to give it a try but then there was another problem.

Photographer
You need a photographer to click pictures obviously but finding a person with enough time is hard and for me, it was really hard. All my friends were busy with their classes and my family members with their work. So, I waited and waited and finally one of my friends was free enough to do the task for me *shout out to Vatsla who clicked the pictures for my first blog post*. She was ready with the camera and we found the location we wanted and it was time to pose. Just when I was getting in the zone I realised I had another problem.

Audience
Without even realising, I caught the attention of people who had nothing to do with me or the thing I was doing. They were just standing there and staring like I wasn’t already awkward enough. They just stood there without blinking but somehow my friend managed to make me comfortable and in no time we were having fun. All the awkwardness was gone, I was not feeling nervous anymore and that’s when I realised that It is worth it.

 

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In the end, I was glad that I did it and when I finally uploaded the post I was relieved and a little bit proud. I could see myself actually happy in those pictures and it was exactly what I wanted because no matter how and what I wrote I was not able to put my feelings completely into the article but the pictures did it for me and I finally understood the saying “a picture is worth a thousand words.” And I know that things do get a little harder before they get better and now I know that they definitely get better. I hope each and every one of you is having a good time and if you are not don’t worry you are just at that awkward stage right now, scared of the camera but soon without even realising you’ll move on into an amazing time. Oh and check out CollegeDekho the website I used to work for, my articles are still up.
Stay Awesome.

7 Cliches for 2017

I have decided to start my blog with a list of resolutions for 2017 and I believe having an open list will force me a little well, a lot more to actually complete the resolutions. Most of them are cliches that have been part of the resolution list for years now but let’s just consider them new for this year just like every other year *wink*. I really want to have fun with my friends and family or random humans and not get stuck in the hole of “let’s make a plan”. I will make plans this year and every other year which will be succeeded. I just want to experience this world in the best way possible before it is just a land with drought and air becomes more poisonous. I love the line, “I want to live before I die, it’s the only thing that makes sense” and from now on I am going to live by it. Having a life worth remembering while I am experiencing the last moments on this earth is the only thing that makes sense.

 

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I want to travel as much as I can. For me travelling is just going out of the house or walking through a street I’ve never walked before and this year I intend to explore everything I possibly can. I do not care about being a traveller or a tourist, I just want to TRAVEL.

6,909 languages are spoken around the world. It is kind of intimidating to think that there are people in this world who do not even know the language I speak and what if that person is important for my sustenance (hypothetically) so, I plan to learn a NEW LANGUAGE this year and possibly every other year. I already know 2 languages and then after adding the new language I will be left with only 6,906.

The creative side of me has forced me to include writing a POEM in this list. I love poetry, I think it is the purest form of expression and being called a poet is not the worst thing in the world (it is the best).

 

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I want to make MY ROOM the cosiest and calmest place possible. I spend most of the time in my room when I am at home so I would like it to be a place full of positive energy and a sanctuary where I can feel fulfilled.

I am one of the people who have really bad taste buds and cannot figure out the proper taste of food ever. So, this year I intend to believe reviews and my friends for food. I would try to eat a new dish every week *try*. Food is the second best thing in this world because first is chocolate.

I have always been a quiet kind of person, more of a listener. This year I am going to embrace this trait of mine rather than feeling uncomfortable when people say *you should talk more*.

And last but not the least I would like to paint. I am not an artist, I do not paint on regular basis. But I do love the idea of presenting our imagination or thoughts to the world via art, it is just mesmerising.

 

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These are just some of the cheesiest and the most innovative things I could think of for this year that I want to do and I hope you have made a list too. I wish each and every one of you a very very HAPPY NEW YEAR. I believe in you and your potential, you can do anything you want. Please don’t forget to be nice to each other oh and try to make this place a better place to live in.
Stay Awesome.