The Blame Game

The feeling of HUMAN SPECIES being a parasite is getting stronger every day. We all want progress, development but paying tenfold the price for it, seems like a vapid idea. We all have a business person in us, but, it is slowly turning into a thief. A thief of natural resources, other people’s virtue and soul.

I believe you all must have heard about ZAINAB, the girl who was raped and murdered in Pakistan or about the Delhi rape and murder case or the Mathura rape case or Jessica Lunsford case or Sandra Cantu case, even if I write for days at a stretch I won’t even come close to finishing the list. And the irony is that all the malefactors blamed their deed on the victim.

We humans always find a way to pin the blame on somebody else so, we stay clean. No matter if it is a crime against humanity or the course of daily life, taking responsibility is not our strong suit. We cannot just take and take and take, and make the other person completely hollow and not expect them to buzz. The buzzing will soon make us all deaf and we will still be crying, asking, what is it that we did wrong!

Experiencing NEW YEAR’s EVE

I greeted the New Year with all the positivity I could find in me and planned the heck out of it. It’s only been a week and I have already read a book and have watched five movies. The New Year always brings a great promise, a promise that the dreams will come true and things will be exactly the way I wish them to be. I know it isn’t true or even healthy to believe, nevertheless, this is my reflex. I am one of those people who hardly stay awake after ten O’clock, but, there is something glamorous about the New Year’s Eve.

So, this year, for the very first time, I experienced the cliched moment of striking the clock twelve and feeling Utopia can very well be earth, with my friends. We weren’t in a club, soaked in liquor but in bed, discussing the spiritual realm.

The possibility of souls being trapped in purgatory or possibly they don’t or can’t leave because there is no afterlife, everything is here and now, no there and later. The possession of the human body and the extent of its destruction. There are so many strands being tied around our neck, I don’t understand why we choose to add to it. Anyway, there were a lot more to our skull session than just, spiritual realm.

And soon the yackety-yak turned into yawning and, the New Year was here.

Let’s Own 2018

Humans, even the predictable ones do not love the idea of monotony. We all crave change, a clean slate, a fresh start that a NEW YEAR brings. Another chance to try for things we want, we need, we wish.

But, is it enough? Just having a New Year. Making a resolutions’ list, only to disregard it. Isn’t it so much comfortable to just go back to the old habits, feeling somewhat accomplished because we tried.

I watched a TED TALK the other day where the speaker said that the major problem with current living Humans is that we are okay with just trying. We do not strive to accomplish or to be the best. We believe it is healthier to be easy on ourselves but in this process, we forget to give our everything, to try with every ounce of energy we have, only because trying is enough.

At first, I thought that he is being unreasonable because the thought of accepting that I am also one of these Humans was not something I wanted to entertain but as I kept on watching and he kept on explaining, I was in the category he wanted me. It didn’t lead to an epiphany, but it was definitely a pinch from reality.

A pinch to wake me enough to start making changes, slowly. Today I start blogging again, I do not remember why I stopped, but It doesn’t matter anymore.

So, this year I am not just going to make resolutions, I am going to make a life I want. Because I don’t want life to be a ‘Moo Point.’

January 2017 Update

It was all right and very productive at the same time. I don’t know if I was responsible for this all right month or the so called people I know.

Just like every new year I was motivated, I was going to make things happen and I was going to be “me”. Oh, don’t worry I was me this month actually the whole month, it’s just I was the version I don’t want to be.

I did so much this month, I was so into my resolutions and was trying so hard to achieve them. And I managed to tick off 4 things off my list- 7 Cliches for 2017.  

 

I joined a course to learn french and I am really loving it. It is not as easy as I thought it would be but I do like a challenge so it’s perfect.

I also wrote a poem *yay, I am a poet*. Obviously, it doesn’t rhyme because I cannot rhyme, it is a free verse and I am actually pretty proud of it.

I found an amazing Chinese restaurant and the perfect thing about it is that it is in my area *low-key dancing*. And the food is “yum”.

I am also half way done with my room, it is not exactly a sanctuary right now but it is pleasing to my eyes.

 

Mentally- This month was a little rough, I had problems more than usual but somehow I managed to overcome them or maybe I just suppressed them like always. I don’t like talking about it which only adds to it and even if I do talk about it I don’t see a positive outcome.

Physically- It was all right. Still taking medicines, still visiting doctors and still don’t have a permanent solution to whatever I have.

Conclusion- I am ecstatic about the progress I have made and I am trying really hard to be the version of myself that I want to be. And it’s all okay.

Stay Awesome Humans.

Are you Beautiful or Pretty?

When I was in 9th standard my teacher asked the class what is the difference between beautiful and pretty?

And listening to these words filled my mind with supermodels, actresses and people on the front page of magazines. Just when I was admiring how amazing Cameron Diaz looked on the front page of the cosmopolitan magazine, she asked the question again. And this time I tried to focus but I couldn’t figure out the difference.

The whole class was quite, some knew the answer but couldn’t put it in words, some were just confused and some thought that we were going to study synonyms that day.

After a long pause, she said that she never expected an answer from us and it is okay that we don’t know. And then she explained the difference.

Beautiful is a person who feels good, a person who is content while pretty is a vanity word. Pretty means looking good and just looking good.

I never knew that words hold so much power and even synonyms are so significantly different. From that day on I wanted to be a beautiful person and I still want to.

But as I grew up I realised that even though beautiful is a state that we should aspire to be in but we run after pretty.

 

This world is all about looking, not feeling.

If you look good you must feel good right!?

But what if we don’t?

 

People say we are not allowed to be impaired if we don’t have a terminal disease or wounds to show.

But we are hurt and we are in pain and don’t know how to explain.

 

Dressing up, putting on makeup, wearing high heels are the ultimate signs of being happy or so I’ve heard.

But I’ve seen people laughing hard while crying inside.

I’ve seen people dressed up from tip to toe while feeling hollow inside.

I’ve seen people just surviving, passing each day by.

 

If someone looks good it doesn’t mean they feel good.

So maybe once in while ask, “How are you feeling” instead of saying “You look good.”

Free Verse by Mortal in White

 

It felt so lonely here, amidst them all

All the loved ones were here and the dear ones too

If it was a feeling of a phase, I don’t know

No one tried nor did I and the feeling or phase seemed more perpetual

 

And then I moved from wretched to anxious and then to serene

 

Now I’m happy being alone, makes me content

All the noise is gone and I’m calm

Today I know the contrast in alone and lonely

I understand both, I respect both, I espouse both

 

I acknowledge happiness is awesome, but the Universe doesn’t revolve around a smile

Incandescent Objects Help Our Brain Work Better

Ever wondered about how the stars were made? I know the scientific explanation but what exactly was the purpose of those shiny little things in the sky which are numerous gases and miles away from us. I like to believe they are a ray of hope *I know it sounds cheesy but truth is truth* and something that unites this world together because no matter where you are, you can always see the stars *and other stationary objects but you get the idea*. I have always loved the idea of just lying in an open ground and watching the starry sky which is brightly lit. But I live in a city, city full of extremely bright lights which somehow overpowers the natural beauty of stars and the idea of watching that starry sky becomes more of a fantasy. It is a fantasy that gives me extra fuel on worthless days. Days when I don’t feel like myself or days when I don’t feel like getting out of bed or days when I just feel like ignoring the world.

 

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I have always been that person with the most different bags and strong opinions and extreme headbands and ardent principles. There were several times when I was so unsure of myself and wondered if it’s good to be the person I am *this bold and opinionated*. I know it seems mindless to worry about such useless things like bags or shoes but these useless things are what makes our personality. You are your choices, you can be considered something only if you are allowing it. And all this just made me realise that this world is like that extremely harsh city light and somehow we as stars just lose our natural light. But the most important thing is that no matter what happens we have to shine brighter than those harsh lights and help each other embrace our natural self. Everyone is opinionated on this planet and maybe on other planets too and that’s okay.

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Everyone is free to be whomsoever they want to be and enjoy whatever they like but we should not forget that we share this planet with more than 7 billion humans. Our opinions and decisions affect everyone so it is time to just stop blaming the society or the world because we always forget that we are the society and we make this world. A lot of humans have worked really hard just so we could enjoy the world as it is today and I think we owe it to them, us and future generations to not degrade it like we are currently doing and be careless with it. We have come so far from the times when we had to rub stones together to generate fire so why are we trying to go back to that cave people lifestyle. The best we can do in current situations is just be a magical sea unicorn and leave all the stupid problems behind and radiate as bright as we can. Please be nice to each other and try to be the best version of yourself.
Stay Awesome.